All the music that I love and have loved over the past 37 years of my life...
This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy
I need somebody to heal
Somebody to know
Somebody to have
Somebody to hold
It's easy to say
But it's never the same
I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain
Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to
This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you
Now, I need somebody to know
Somebody to heal
Somebody to have
Just to know how it feels
It's easy to say but it's never the same
I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape
Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
And I tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes
I fall into your arms
I'll be safe in your sound 'til I come back around
For now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
But now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
Will you forgive me if I'm coming off a little bit obtuse?
Well it's been a minute now, since I have had to tell the truth
I know, I can
I won't
Suppose I thought that by this moment I would have it figured out
But instead, I tend to spend my days consumed by seeds of doubt
I know, I can
I won't
Oh, darlin' it goes on and on, and on
Always forever 'til I'm barely holdin' on
End of my tether, and I know it won't be long
It won't be long 'til it's gone
So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my fucking head
On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"
I try to tell myself my best days are the ones that lie ahead
But I'm always looking back on things I wish I'd never said
I know, I can
I won't
Oh, darlin' it goes on and on, and on
Always forever 'til I'm barely holdin' on
End of my tether, and I know it won't be long
It won't be long 'til it's gone
So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my fucking head
On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"
I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah
But I'll get there, and no
I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah
But I'll get there
So here's to my beautiful life
It seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my fucking head
On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"
Songwriters: Benjamin Alexander Kohn, Tom Barnes, Peter Kelleher, Lewis Capaldi, Tobias Jesso Jr.
Two years and still you're not gone
Guess I'm still holding on
Drag my name through the dirt
Somehow it doesn't hurt though
Guess you're still holding on
You told your friends you want me dead
And said that I did everything wrong
And you're not wrong
Well I'll take all the vitriol
But not the thought of you moving on
'Cause I'm not ready
To find out you know how to forget me
I'd rather hear how much you regret me
And pray to God that you never met me
Than forget me
Oh I hate to know I made you cry
But love to know I cross your mind
Babe oh I
Even after all it'd still wreck me
To find out you'd know how to forget me
Even after all this time
Days ache and nights are grey
My heart is still your place babe
Guess I still feel the same
Know you can't stand my face
Some scars you can't erase babe
Guess you still feel the same
Well I'll take all the vitriol
But not the thought of you moving on
'Cause I'm not ready
To find out you know how to forget me
I'd rather hear how much you regret me
And pray to God that you never met me
Than forget me
Oh I hate to know I made you cry
But love to know I cross your mind
Babe oh I
Even after all it'd still wreck me
To find out you'd know how to forget me
Even after all this time
I'm not ready to let you forget me
To let you forget me
To let you for oh
I'm not ready to let you forget me
(Even after all this time)
To let you forget me
To let you for oh
I'm not ready to let you forget me
To let you forget me
To let you for oh
I'm not ready to let you forget me
To let you forget me
To let you for oh
'Cause I'm not ready
To find out you know how to forget me
I'd rather hear how much you regret me
And pray to God that you never met me
Than forget me
Oh I hate to know I made you cry
But love to know I cross your mind
Babe oh I
Even after all it'd still wreck me
To find out you'd know how to forget me
Even after all this time
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